Wow, it has been a while. I've been very busy. Between work, going home this weekend with my Kate, and working on the 2005 Soccer guide. There has been no time for anything else.
Hmmm, so where do we start? Well, we now have wireless. Yes, that's right. I am currently sitting in front of the TV as we speak. So I can watch my Cardinals and still be able to talk to people online and the such. I love it. And yes, I am a tool. And strangely fine with it.
Dead Like Me is on. Man, do I miss that show. Such great characters, good stories. They really need to bring it back.
So this weekend I brought Kate home with me to meet the family. It was Danny's last weekend home. It went really well. My family really took in to her, just as I had hoped and really welcomed her with open arms, made her feel at home. And I really love my family for that. It really meant a lot to me to see that.
On Saturday, we went golfing after breakfast with my dad and a guy from church. We had a good time. I was putting a lot better than I ever have, which was nice. I think I played one of my better games that day, which really doesn't say that much. But, I want to play more this summer. If you are around the Haute this summer, and want to play, let me know.
After golf we went to the Cardinals game, and wow, did we pick an awesome game. Cardinals rocked the Pirates 8-0 as Chris Carpenter threw a complete game, four hit shutout. Jimmy and his girlfriend came with us, which was nice to spend some quality time with them. When I was still living at home, my little brothers weren't dating much, so it was nice to do that together. After the game we just hung around Union Station for a while, just walking around and enjoying the scenery and each other's company.
On Sunday we hit up Fitz's before leaving and it was sooo worth it. Katie finally got to see what all this fuss has been about Fitz's. Good food, good root beer, good times. Damn, that should be their motto or something. Hehe.
It was so awesome being home with Katie like that. And for some reason, home felt more like home than home has been in a long, long time. I was wondering why that is a lot lately. But I just feel so at ease and comfortable when I am around her, like I'm at home. Kinda weird, but awesome.
I was really glad my family was as awesome as they were. So to my parents, thanks.
Speaking of which, I confirmed on Saturday, something I had pretty well known for a little while now, but got my dad to admit it. My dad reads my blog. He had never commented before because he didn't want me to know that he reads this, that I would be less candid if I did knew. But I have known for some time now, and I will say whats on my mind. It's my blog. This is me. My blog is a place for me to pour out myself for the world to see. I am not going to hide something because of someone reading it, or a large part of my blog is lost.
I'm trying to get my dad to set up his own blog. He claims he has nothing interesting to put in it, but I pull out the bullshit card on that one. A blog is not all about what you did that day, but observations you ahve made and your thoughts, to publish to others, often inspiring thoughts or your readers. You don't have to be young and in college and such to have a blog, it's just that's the generation it started with. Check out Nick's dad's Blog. He has some awesome insight and interesting observations on life and love and the such.
I'd really like to get to know my dad better. We never really talked in high school as I never felt my dad understood me at all. But now I feel like he understands me a lot better than ever, but sometimes I just want to dive into his head. Maybe this blog will help.
I'd also like to be closer to my brothers. I am going to be writing Danny as often as I can. He begins Basic Cadet Training tomorrow. He will be going through a fun six weeks of hell. He can do it though. He is very strong minded and in great shape. Those are the two things that will really get you there, and he's got it. With how annoying it can get to hear of all his accomplishments, especially in light of all I've been going through lately, I am really proud of him and his ability to see a goal and do everything in his power to get there.
I really feel sorry for his girlfriend, Leslie, right now. It must be really tough what she is going through right now. They saw each other all the time while they were dating and were never apart from each other for more than a week or two, and even then they talked often on the phone. She won't see him again until Thanksgiving and won't be able to talk to him at all for 6 weeks. She can write him letters, which I really hope she does (a letter means the world to a cadet going through that training), but she can't talk to him and get an immediate response till the end of training. Good luck to the two of them. It's hard enough leaving Katie for that annoying time between weekends, I can't imagine for longer than that. And we talk all the time in between seeing each other. I would hate to leave her any longer than I do now. It's becoming so hard sometimes when she leaves.
Wow, this has become a long post. Sorry to those that are waiting on questions from me, or answers to their questions. I'll get to them soon. I'll leave you with some Tait that I have come back to. Man, that is an awesome band and some amazing vocals. I love this guy's range, and awesome lyrical (is that a word? If not, it is now.) talent. I hope these words speak as true to you as they have to me.
I heard you say that no one seems to care ‘bout you
It’s in your eyes, you think that life’s unfair to you
Just give it all you got, my friend
Just give it all you got, it’s not the end
Cause you oughta know
There’s a reason for these changin’ seasons
God only knows how much your heart can bear
So don’t you let go
Everybody has their up and down times
Everybody needs to know how much they’re loved
My friend
So hold on, it’s not the end
As I remember everything you touch
Would turn to gold
You held the secrets
To make your grandest dreams unfold
You were the very best of us all
But the sun that rises still falls
It’s just a love song
Cause everybody needs a friend
I’ll be right here for you
Just a simple prayer
It’s from the bottom of my heart
That He’ll never let you go
P.S.Those in the Haute this weekend are free to swing by our house for our cookout on Sunday, starting at 3. If you are on facebook, let me know I will give you an official invite. If not, leave me a message so I know you're coming, and I'll get you more details. Peace.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Santeria on a Wednesday Night
Yes, another update. Maybe now you will comment. I wonder if my dad will finally comment. Hmmmmmmm.
Without much ado, here are some INterview questions for those who have asked to be interviewed:
Katie:
1. You say there are too many Katies. Is there a name that better fits you? If so what is it and why?
2. Describe to me how you would like to be in 10 or 15 years. Where will you live? Job? Married? Kids?
3. What are the things you look for in a boyfriend? Friend? Do they differ? If so, why?
4. What in life brings you the biggest smile? Why?
5. Say Steph writes a fictional book based on you. What's the title? Plot line? Defining moments? Climax?
K to the Aren:
1. When you are a mulit-millionaire, what will Rose name after you?
2. A letter shows up at your door to reveal some shocking news. What does it say? How do you react?
3. What play/musical best describes you or your life?
4. What is the best song known to man? Band? Convince me.
5. You have seen the future and you are going to die in an hour, there is no way around it. What do you do for the last hour of your life? Do you fight it anyway?
Sara:
1. You have to choose between the love of your life and your dreams. Which do you choose and why?
2. If you could live in any era, which would it be and why?
3. If you were to look back on your life, when would be your "good ole days" and why?
4. You can change one thing about you. What do you choose to change?
5. I am told I have my mother's eyes. What do you want your kids to get from you?
Adam:
1. You tell me hockey is the best sport ever. Convince me.
2. You are looking for a new band to love. What do you look for?
3. You have the oppurtunity to go back and change one thing in your life. What is it, or do you change anything?
4. You are told you could never be an engineer any more. What do you do now? Why?
5. A movie is writen about TSAV. What is the main story line? Who plays the main characters? Catch phrase?
There you go. That was fun. Anyone who wants to be interviewed, I still have more where that came from. I can't wait to see the responses.
So today started as a big pile of suck. Nothing in particular, I just wasn't feeling very good and everything that could go wrong did. At least I got to work on time. Yesterday as I am packing my stuff up, these two guys ring the doorbell. They tell me that they were here to replace the windows. I had no idea about this. Turns out the landlord left a note to call her about it, but no one had bothered to call her. So they showed up and I had to stick around so this could get done. I tried to contact Tom so he could let my boss know what was going on, but Tom was in a meeting all day. Around 930a I ask these guys how much longer they thought it was going to be. They tell me another hour and a half more than likely. Damn. So I get a hold of Adam at work and tell him whats going on, and he volunteers to come home, so I could go to work. See this guy from New York was in that day to meet with us about stuff in cycle 2 and I really needed to be there and had some questions for this guy. So Adam gets there at 10 to save me so I can run to work. That was a pain in the bum. Today wasn't much better, but I got to work on time.
After work I went and played racquetball and played some of the best racquetball I ever have. I was simply in a zone and could serve the best I ever have. I didn't care so much about placement and was just trying to beat the crap out of the ball. It felt good. Almost as good as throwing a baseball as hard as I can and hearing that crack of the mit as the ball screams in. Oh God, I love baseball. Summer == baseball and that's how it should be. God, I wish I were in a softball league or something around here.
Hehe, this is funny.
So what is it with QA and an inability to be competent with programming? Or at least good with a computer? I mean seriously, what does it take to get a job in QA? Is it better outside of C-House, or should I just be ready to deal with that?
I can't wait for this weekend. My family gets to meet Kate and see everything I love about her. On Saturday, Jimmy and Maureen are coming with us to the Cardinals game. That should be fun. I'm looking forward to it. Not to mention I get to see my Kate again, and that is always something to look forward to.
Well I want to get to bed before midnight tonight and I am almost done with the first book of the Harry Potter type, and I must say it is a good one. But first I want to do some points, because I haven't in a while and I haven't updated in a while, so I gotta make it up to you some how. First of all 150 points to Kate for a reason to be excited and making me smile for no reason at all. 50 points to Adam for a great time in Indy. 35 points to Mike for being very sneaky but a good friend. 65 points to Katie for making me laugh and smile, even at work when I am having the shittiest of days. You so rock. Another 25 to anyone to comment in this post. 23 points a piece to Katie, Karen, Sara and Adam for letting me interview them. 17 more points to anyone to ask to be interviewed after this. 45 points to Chris Carpenter for being such an amazing pitcher. Too bad he doesn't read this blog. 30 points to my dad, should he comment.
Now for bed, and some Sublime. Haven't posted Sublime in a while, but good stuff.
I don't practice Santeria
I ain't got no crystal ball
Well I had a million dollars but I, I'd spend it all
If I could find that heina and that sancho that she'd found
Well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down
What I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, I can't define
Well it's love that I neeeeeed
My soul will have to wait till I get back
Find a heina of my own
Daddy's gonna love one and all
I feel the break, feel the break, feel the break
And I gotta live it out
Oh yeah un-huh
Well I swear that I, what I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, I can't define
Got love! Make it go
My soul will have to...
What I really wanna say (my baby)
What I really wanna say, is I've got mine
And I'll make it
Yes, I'm going up
Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him
He best go run and hide
Daddy's got a new .45
And I won't think twice
To stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat
Believe me when I say that I got something for his punk-ass
What I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, is there's just one way back
And I'll make it
My soul will have to wait
Without much ado, here are some INterview questions for those who have asked to be interviewed:
Katie:
1. You say there are too many Katies. Is there a name that better fits you? If so what is it and why?
2. Describe to me how you would like to be in 10 or 15 years. Where will you live? Job? Married? Kids?
3. What are the things you look for in a boyfriend? Friend? Do they differ? If so, why?
4. What in life brings you the biggest smile? Why?
5. Say Steph writes a fictional book based on you. What's the title? Plot line? Defining moments? Climax?
K to the Aren:
1. When you are a mulit-millionaire, what will Rose name after you?
2. A letter shows up at your door to reveal some shocking news. What does it say? How do you react?
3. What play/musical best describes you or your life?
4. What is the best song known to man? Band? Convince me.
5. You have seen the future and you are going to die in an hour, there is no way around it. What do you do for the last hour of your life? Do you fight it anyway?
Sara:
1. You have to choose between the love of your life and your dreams. Which do you choose and why?
2. If you could live in any era, which would it be and why?
3. If you were to look back on your life, when would be your "good ole days" and why?
4. You can change one thing about you. What do you choose to change?
5. I am told I have my mother's eyes. What do you want your kids to get from you?
Adam:
1. You tell me hockey is the best sport ever. Convince me.
2. You are looking for a new band to love. What do you look for?
3. You have the oppurtunity to go back and change one thing in your life. What is it, or do you change anything?
4. You are told you could never be an engineer any more. What do you do now? Why?
5. A movie is writen about TSAV. What is the main story line? Who plays the main characters? Catch phrase?
There you go. That was fun. Anyone who wants to be interviewed, I still have more where that came from. I can't wait to see the responses.
So today started as a big pile of suck. Nothing in particular, I just wasn't feeling very good and everything that could go wrong did. At least I got to work on time. Yesterday as I am packing my stuff up, these two guys ring the doorbell. They tell me that they were here to replace the windows. I had no idea about this. Turns out the landlord left a note to call her about it, but no one had bothered to call her. So they showed up and I had to stick around so this could get done. I tried to contact Tom so he could let my boss know what was going on, but Tom was in a meeting all day. Around 930a I ask these guys how much longer they thought it was going to be. They tell me another hour and a half more than likely. Damn. So I get a hold of Adam at work and tell him whats going on, and he volunteers to come home, so I could go to work. See this guy from New York was in that day to meet with us about stuff in cycle 2 and I really needed to be there and had some questions for this guy. So Adam gets there at 10 to save me so I can run to work. That was a pain in the bum. Today wasn't much better, but I got to work on time.
After work I went and played racquetball and played some of the best racquetball I ever have. I was simply in a zone and could serve the best I ever have. I didn't care so much about placement and was just trying to beat the crap out of the ball. It felt good. Almost as good as throwing a baseball as hard as I can and hearing that crack of the mit as the ball screams in. Oh God, I love baseball. Summer == baseball and that's how it should be. God, I wish I were in a softball league or something around here.
Hehe, this is funny.
So what is it with QA and an inability to be competent with programming? Or at least good with a computer? I mean seriously, what does it take to get a job in QA? Is it better outside of C-House, or should I just be ready to deal with that?
I can't wait for this weekend. My family gets to meet Kate and see everything I love about her. On Saturday, Jimmy and Maureen are coming with us to the Cardinals game. That should be fun. I'm looking forward to it. Not to mention I get to see my Kate again, and that is always something to look forward to.
Well I want to get to bed before midnight tonight and I am almost done with the first book of the Harry Potter type, and I must say it is a good one. But first I want to do some points, because I haven't in a while and I haven't updated in a while, so I gotta make it up to you some how. First of all 150 points to Kate for a reason to be excited and making me smile for no reason at all. 50 points to Adam for a great time in Indy. 35 points to Mike for being very sneaky but a good friend. 65 points to Katie for making me laugh and smile, even at work when I am having the shittiest of days. You so rock. Another 25 to anyone to comment in this post. 23 points a piece to Katie, Karen, Sara and Adam for letting me interview them. 17 more points to anyone to ask to be interviewed after this. 45 points to Chris Carpenter for being such an amazing pitcher. Too bad he doesn't read this blog. 30 points to my dad, should he comment.
Now for bed, and some Sublime. Haven't posted Sublime in a while, but good stuff.
I don't practice Santeria
I ain't got no crystal ball
Well I had a million dollars but I, I'd spend it all
If I could find that heina and that sancho that she'd found
Well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down
What I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, I can't define
Well it's love that I neeeeeed
My soul will have to wait till I get back
Find a heina of my own
Daddy's gonna love one and all
I feel the break, feel the break, feel the break
And I gotta live it out
Oh yeah un-huh
Well I swear that I, what I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, I can't define
Got love! Make it go
My soul will have to...
What I really wanna say (my baby)
What I really wanna say, is I've got mine
And I'll make it
Yes, I'm going up
Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him
He best go run and hide
Daddy's got a new .45
And I won't think twice
To stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat
Believe me when I say that I got something for his punk-ass
What I really wanna know (my baby)
What I really wanna say, is there's just one way back
And I'll make it
My soul will have to wait
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Walk With You on a Saturday Night
Sitting here at Adam's house, watching SportsCenter. It's been a pretty fun weekend. Last night we went to the Hagerty sisters' house to hang out. Steph offered to make dinner for us, and by make dinner, she meant have me cook dinner at their house. In all fairness she did provide dessert. What would you do for a Klondike bar? It was a good time. I made these citrus grillers with a rice side and a mandarin salad. It was quite tasty I must say. It was so good that Steph gave up being a vegetarian to eat some of the chicken. They also had a hot tub in the basement, which didn't hurt I tell you. Soon the word no became like a Polish village...unpronouncable. (10 points to the first person to catch the reference)
So I forgot a part of Nick's interview and so this is for you, Nick, so you don't feel slighted. Now part of the second question I believe was what would be my trademark in my band. Well, this was tough, because I think trademarks are something that happens and everyone happens to love it and you play to your fans. Or something that you happen to do and people pick up that you happen to do it all the time. But a planned trademark is rather cheap. However something that I think would be really cool to be known for would be to wear a full suit and fidora for every concert. I think it looks very stylish and would be an awesome look for my band, even though we are a rock band and not some swing band. So there ya go Nick. You better be happy.
It was nice to see Jesseca again. We got to talk a little in the van heading to Indy. I miss my talks with her.
Oh the irony experinced in conversations this weekend...
So I'm watching SportsCenter here and they didn't do a single clip from the Cardinals game or even mention it. WTF, mate? That was the main reason I even turned it on. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr. Damn that ESPN.
So tonight we went to Indy and just walked around on the city and hung out. It was nice. Adam's friend Hef came out with us as well. There was some festival thing on the circle in the center of town and some damn hot cars there. Apparently the Porsche club was in town, having a banquet downtown. They were docked (yes, parking is too cheap for a Porsche, they dock) over on the bridge nearby. Daing, that was some sweet cars you might say. Adam, Hef and I just stared. Very nice.
Well, it's getting late and this has been a long weekend. I get to see my Kate tomorrow, so I should get some sleep. I'll leave you with some Dispatch. Such an awesome band. Too bad they are no longer. But their music will live forever.
and I will walk with you
using the stars as guides
on a homeward path we go
knowing our time is nigh
I, I will walk... to be with you
so put your hand in mine
and lay your head to rest
we'll light the candles now
they won't be lit for long
we'll know our day was blessed
and I will walk with you
using the stars as guides
on a homeward path we go
knowing our time is nigh
I, I will walk to be with you
all that I've done, and all I say
to be with you...
So I forgot a part of Nick's interview and so this is for you, Nick, so you don't feel slighted. Now part of the second question I believe was what would be my trademark in my band. Well, this was tough, because I think trademarks are something that happens and everyone happens to love it and you play to your fans. Or something that you happen to do and people pick up that you happen to do it all the time. But a planned trademark is rather cheap. However something that I think would be really cool to be known for would be to wear a full suit and fidora for every concert. I think it looks very stylish and would be an awesome look for my band, even though we are a rock band and not some swing band. So there ya go Nick. You better be happy.
It was nice to see Jesseca again. We got to talk a little in the van heading to Indy. I miss my talks with her.
Oh the irony experinced in conversations this weekend...
So I'm watching SportsCenter here and they didn't do a single clip from the Cardinals game or even mention it. WTF, mate? That was the main reason I even turned it on. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr. Damn that ESPN.
So tonight we went to Indy and just walked around on the city and hung out. It was nice. Adam's friend Hef came out with us as well. There was some festival thing on the circle in the center of town and some damn hot cars there. Apparently the Porsche club was in town, having a banquet downtown. They were docked (yes, parking is too cheap for a Porsche, they dock) over on the bridge nearby. Daing, that was some sweet cars you might say. Adam, Hef and I just stared. Very nice.
Well, it's getting late and this has been a long weekend. I get to see my Kate tomorrow, so I should get some sleep. I'll leave you with some Dispatch. Such an awesome band. Too bad they are no longer. But their music will live forever.
and I will walk with you
using the stars as guides
on a homeward path we go
knowing our time is nigh
I, I will walk... to be with you
so put your hand in mine
and lay your head to rest
we'll light the candles now
they won't be lit for long
we'll know our day was blessed
and I will walk with you
using the stars as guides
on a homeward path we go
knowing our time is nigh
I, I will walk to be with you
all that I've done, and all I say
to be with you...
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Be My Escape on a Thursday Night
First of all, I have been interviewed by Nick. The Official Interview Game Rules
1. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying "interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person's will be different.
3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
So here is Nick's interview:
1.) What thing about yourself that used to true makes you glad you've changed?
Well, I used to be rather close-minded, something that has definately changed since coming to Rose. There were things that I looked down upon people for doing, such as drinking. I had no idea about it and my perception of drinking was much different as now. I have learned that a lot of that is about being responsible. I still don't care for anyone who does stupid things while drunk, as there is really no excuse for that. But I have learned to have an open mind about things and try to see from someone else's shoes.
2.) If you were in a band, what instrument would it make sense for you to play? (Disregard that you already play the guitar.) What would be your famous onstage trademark?
Even disregarding the fact that I play guitar, I would be a guitar player in a band. It is an instrument I have always loved, one of the reasons I currently play it. I would also more than likely be the lead vocalist. I have always been one to be the frontman of a such band. I have sort of formed a band with my little brothers at home and have done a few songs together. I would want to be the rhythm guitarist, not because I'm not good enough to play lead, but because I would want to concentrate on the vocals and do not feel I could give them the effort they deserved should I try to play lead guitar as well.
3.) If you could really read girl's minds, what do you think you'd hear?
Hmmm, there are so many possibilities to this question, many of which could get me in trouble. But I really think that if I could hear their thoughts, I would hear another language. I really wouldn't understand what was being said, it would be halfway recognizable, but not translatable. Men and women communicate in different languages and I think this where a lot of the misunderstanding comes. Men and women can say the exact same thing and mean totally different things, but if you try to translate it as the opposite gender would, you get a different idea of what was said than what was said. Looking back at that answer, it might be confusing so if I just made your head spin, I'm sorry.
4.) (Movie inspired...) If you could predict the future, how would you use what you knew?
That's really tough, I'd like to think I would do something similar to the old tv show, Early Edition. But sometimes I wonder what negative effect these actions could have, like in Frequency when keeping his father alive caused a killer to not die and ends up killing his mother. But would I be able to see the future with my actions? How would these visions change as I change things I do? And there is the whole question of fate. Now I don't know how much I really believe in fate, at least predestination. It seems more like a cop out for not making an effort, pretending you don't really have control. We may never know for sure, but I strongly believe people have free will, but who knows? Back to the point, if I could see the future, I think I would use it to do good, but then good is relative. So since it is me doing the act, it would be my perspective of good.
5.) If you could kill one famous person, who would it be? Alive only, please.
Now my first reaction is the military instinct to take out a terrorist or something like Bin Ladin before 9-11 to save some tens of thousands lives, but then again we as a nation may have needed something like that to open our eyes and realize we weren't untouchable. But was it worth 10,000 lives? That is the real question. There is no one that I really hate to the point that I want them dead. Maybe jailed or sent off to somewhere horrible, but not dead. I don't know, maybe it's the soft heart in me. However, thinking more on it, I think I would take out Bin Laden now. He deserves to be punished for what he did and a message sent that the US doesn't take crap from terrorists. Also, with him being a leader in the terrorist world, it would send a message to other terrorists. So if I had to pick someone, Bin Laden is it.
There ya go, there are my answers. Now if anyone wants to be interviewed by me, let me know in a comment.
So today we had a meeting with a higher up in the Columbia House company about the merger between us and BMG. Basically they don't know anything yet except they are shooting for July 1st for it to be official. It was a pretty funny meeting actually. I thought I was watching Queer Eye. These two men were rather stylish and kept bickering, but almost flirting with each other. They looked like some gay couple doing a show. They even started making fun of each other's hair. It was rather humorous.
Kinda tired, weird.
So I have noticed people don't comment much when I update regularly like they want me to. But will comment more when I don't update much. Interesting. Commenting makes me happy, and people want me to blog. I didn't get a high grade in psych, but I definately remember that's not the best way to get things done. Don't remember the exact term, which may be why I didn't get the best grade...
Kinda tired tonight....
My roommates have pretty decent taste in music which is nice.
I love smiles. Smiles say so much and getting people to smile makes my day. Smiles are often a sign of happyness on some level and often the level is shown in the smile. And smiles make me happy, especially if I know I am the cause of them.
My girl is awesome. Had to say it, she makes me so happy. I'm sorry to those who get tired of hearing it, but it's hard to shut up about it sometimes.
I want a nice picture of the Rat Pack to go over our office. I think that would be pretty stylin'. I like the pic with them at the pool table. Gotta love Sinatra. I saw an awesome picture of him in Applebee's. Reminded me of him in Guys and Dolls, one of my favorite musicals.
Wow this is a long post. I think I will end on some good ole Relient K. One of my favorite bands by far.
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
1. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying "interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person's will be different.
3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
So here is Nick's interview:
1.) What thing about yourself that used to true makes you glad you've changed?
Well, I used to be rather close-minded, something that has definately changed since coming to Rose. There were things that I looked down upon people for doing, such as drinking. I had no idea about it and my perception of drinking was much different as now. I have learned that a lot of that is about being responsible. I still don't care for anyone who does stupid things while drunk, as there is really no excuse for that. But I have learned to have an open mind about things and try to see from someone else's shoes.
2.) If you were in a band, what instrument would it make sense for you to play? (Disregard that you already play the guitar.) What would be your famous onstage trademark?
Even disregarding the fact that I play guitar, I would be a guitar player in a band. It is an instrument I have always loved, one of the reasons I currently play it. I would also more than likely be the lead vocalist. I have always been one to be the frontman of a such band. I have sort of formed a band with my little brothers at home and have done a few songs together. I would want to be the rhythm guitarist, not because I'm not good enough to play lead, but because I would want to concentrate on the vocals and do not feel I could give them the effort they deserved should I try to play lead guitar as well.
3.) If you could really read girl's minds, what do you think you'd hear?
Hmmm, there are so many possibilities to this question, many of which could get me in trouble. But I really think that if I could hear their thoughts, I would hear another language. I really wouldn't understand what was being said, it would be halfway recognizable, but not translatable. Men and women communicate in different languages and I think this where a lot of the misunderstanding comes. Men and women can say the exact same thing and mean totally different things, but if you try to translate it as the opposite gender would, you get a different idea of what was said than what was said. Looking back at that answer, it might be confusing so if I just made your head spin, I'm sorry.
4.) (Movie inspired...) If you could predict the future, how would you use what you knew?
That's really tough, I'd like to think I would do something similar to the old tv show, Early Edition. But sometimes I wonder what negative effect these actions could have, like in Frequency when keeping his father alive caused a killer to not die and ends up killing his mother. But would I be able to see the future with my actions? How would these visions change as I change things I do? And there is the whole question of fate. Now I don't know how much I really believe in fate, at least predestination. It seems more like a cop out for not making an effort, pretending you don't really have control. We may never know for sure, but I strongly believe people have free will, but who knows? Back to the point, if I could see the future, I think I would use it to do good, but then good is relative. So since it is me doing the act, it would be my perspective of good.
5.) If you could kill one famous person, who would it be? Alive only, please.
Now my first reaction is the military instinct to take out a terrorist or something like Bin Ladin before 9-11 to save some tens of thousands lives, but then again we as a nation may have needed something like that to open our eyes and realize we weren't untouchable. But was it worth 10,000 lives? That is the real question. There is no one that I really hate to the point that I want them dead. Maybe jailed or sent off to somewhere horrible, but not dead. I don't know, maybe it's the soft heart in me. However, thinking more on it, I think I would take out Bin Laden now. He deserves to be punished for what he did and a message sent that the US doesn't take crap from terrorists. Also, with him being a leader in the terrorist world, it would send a message to other terrorists. So if I had to pick someone, Bin Laden is it.
There ya go, there are my answers. Now if anyone wants to be interviewed by me, let me know in a comment.
So today we had a meeting with a higher up in the Columbia House company about the merger between us and BMG. Basically they don't know anything yet except they are shooting for July 1st for it to be official. It was a pretty funny meeting actually. I thought I was watching Queer Eye. These two men were rather stylish and kept bickering, but almost flirting with each other. They looked like some gay couple doing a show. They even started making fun of each other's hair. It was rather humorous.
Kinda tired, weird.
So I have noticed people don't comment much when I update regularly like they want me to. But will comment more when I don't update much. Interesting. Commenting makes me happy, and people want me to blog. I didn't get a high grade in psych, but I definately remember that's not the best way to get things done. Don't remember the exact term, which may be why I didn't get the best grade...
Kinda tired tonight....
My roommates have pretty decent taste in music which is nice.
I love smiles. Smiles say so much and getting people to smile makes my day. Smiles are often a sign of happyness on some level and often the level is shown in the smile. And smiles make me happy, especially if I know I am the cause of them.
My girl is awesome. Had to say it, she makes me so happy. I'm sorry to those who get tired of hearing it, but it's hard to shut up about it sometimes.
I want a nice picture of the Rat Pack to go over our office. I think that would be pretty stylin'. I like the pic with them at the pool table. Gotta love Sinatra. I saw an awesome picture of him in Applebee's. Reminded me of him in Guys and Dolls, one of my favorite musicals.
Wow this is a long post. I think I will end on some good ole Relient K. One of my favorite bands by far.
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Sunday Morning on a Tuesday Night
My Cardinals soo rock. Chris Carpenter = A-friggin-mazing; He threw a dominant one hit shutout tonight, with ten strikeouts. His curveball was just nuts. He made some top hitters in the league look like total idiots out there. And Larry Walker, who is from the area, hit two two-run home runs back to back. He had a stellar night. And to think that may be his second to last game in Canada. He is talking of possible retirement at the end of this season. That is so sad. He has been such an excellent addition to the Cardinals' ball club. It will be sad to see him go, should he decide to do so. Cardinals fans will always remember and love him. He was welcome in St Louis since the first day. His very first at bat in Busch Stadium, he received a standing ovation before and after it. And he struck out.
That's Cardinals fans for you. We really appreciate our players a lot. After any home run last year, the fans demanded a curtain call and would not shut up until they could show the player the recognition they felt he deserved. And these players stay incredibly humble, which just feeds to the fans love.
Man, I love baseball.
So many of you who expressed interest to me for TSAV dream girl and haven't filled out an app, I may be sending you something. Yeah that's right, you. And if I don't have your email I will friggin track you down and make sure you have a copy. So there.
We miss Mahone-dizzle. Come back, man.
Man, Tom Clancy is awesome. I've been reading Rainbow Six and it's a good book. I plan to read the first Harry Potter book afterwards. Yes, I said it, I plan to read Harry Potter. I enjoyed the movies a lot, and so I think I'm gonna check out the books.
I've always been a little leary to read these books. Not because of the witches and wizards BS that my mother hates them for, but because they were such a big fad. I am always leary to jump on the bandwagon and will wait on a lot of things just because they are so popular so fast. Is this right? Wrong? I have no idea, but it is how I seem to operate a lot.
So I'm getting tired of people only worrying about doing "their share" and not just doing what needs to get done. I realize no one wants to be the one always doing everything, but sometimes you need to do something just because it needs to be done and if everyone just gets done what needs to get done, when they see it and not leaving it for someone else because they've already done their share, everything works out. You may end up doing a little bit more than your portion, but sometimes it goes the other way. But either way, things get done and no one points fingers. Okay, stepping off the soap box.
It's nice having clean laundry in a dresser. It's the little things in life I tell you.
I need to get away for a while. My family is on vacation to South Carolina. I kinda feel left out right now. I want to go away to someplace nice and just relax. Maybe I'll go for a weekend with Katie somewhere. That could be awesome. Hmmmmmm. But where could we go for a weekend? Something to ponder.
Ugh, I hate heartburn...
So turns out we are going to see Batman Begins tomorrow night after work. Should be a good one.
Man this summer has been a crazy one. Full of twists and turns and that I didn't see coming like a crazy rollercoaster. I realize that is cliche, but it's not just ups and downs, but these crazy turns that may go up or down and don't leave you with a chance to catch your breath. At least I have one consistancy through this all. An awesome girl and a great group I like to call TSAV. I truly feel blessed to have you in my life. And I can't say enough about my girl. She constantly makes me smile, all the time. And sometimes it's just the little things she does.
I'm a lover of the little things. I don't need something huge to make my day. Sometimes it's just a smile back when I do something for you, or telling me that I have done something that made your day, or leaving a comment *hint, hint*. Put a few of those together in a day and I'll be beaming for days.
The reality of leaving Rose is slowly hitting me. It probably won't fully hit me till this fall when classes start. It is so weird to think that I won't be there in classes any more and to be taking real classes at another college. I think I may enjoy this switch to CS, but I'm even more uncertain of what I want to do after college. Definately a crossroad in my life.
So it's Flag Day apparently. Don't know exactly what that means. Fly a flag or something.
I want to go bowling. With my ball. And be a little competitive. I miss competition. I should be playing baseball right now. I played baseball every summer from 1st grade till I graduated from high school. I miss it so much. I miss the sport, I miss the competition. I haven't competed in a sport since high school and I definately miss it.
Well, this is getting long, so I'll leave you with some Maroon 5. Enjoy.
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave
Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you
That's Cardinals fans for you. We really appreciate our players a lot. After any home run last year, the fans demanded a curtain call and would not shut up until they could show the player the recognition they felt he deserved. And these players stay incredibly humble, which just feeds to the fans love.
Man, I love baseball.
So many of you who expressed interest to me for TSAV dream girl and haven't filled out an app, I may be sending you something. Yeah that's right, you. And if I don't have your email I will friggin track you down and make sure you have a copy. So there.
We miss Mahone-dizzle. Come back, man.
Man, Tom Clancy is awesome. I've been reading Rainbow Six and it's a good book. I plan to read the first Harry Potter book afterwards. Yes, I said it, I plan to read Harry Potter. I enjoyed the movies a lot, and so I think I'm gonna check out the books.
I've always been a little leary to read these books. Not because of the witches and wizards BS that my mother hates them for, but because they were such a big fad. I am always leary to jump on the bandwagon and will wait on a lot of things just because they are so popular so fast. Is this right? Wrong? I have no idea, but it is how I seem to operate a lot.
So I'm getting tired of people only worrying about doing "their share" and not just doing what needs to get done. I realize no one wants to be the one always doing everything, but sometimes you need to do something just because it needs to be done and if everyone just gets done what needs to get done, when they see it and not leaving it for someone else because they've already done their share, everything works out. You may end up doing a little bit more than your portion, but sometimes it goes the other way. But either way, things get done and no one points fingers. Okay, stepping off the soap box.
It's nice having clean laundry in a dresser. It's the little things in life I tell you.
I need to get away for a while. My family is on vacation to South Carolina. I kinda feel left out right now. I want to go away to someplace nice and just relax. Maybe I'll go for a weekend with Katie somewhere. That could be awesome. Hmmmmmm. But where could we go for a weekend? Something to ponder.
Ugh, I hate heartburn...
So turns out we are going to see Batman Begins tomorrow night after work. Should be a good one.
Man this summer has been a crazy one. Full of twists and turns and that I didn't see coming like a crazy rollercoaster. I realize that is cliche, but it's not just ups and downs, but these crazy turns that may go up or down and don't leave you with a chance to catch your breath. At least I have one consistancy through this all. An awesome girl and a great group I like to call TSAV. I truly feel blessed to have you in my life. And I can't say enough about my girl. She constantly makes me smile, all the time. And sometimes it's just the little things she does.
I'm a lover of the little things. I don't need something huge to make my day. Sometimes it's just a smile back when I do something for you, or telling me that I have done something that made your day, or leaving a comment *hint, hint*. Put a few of those together in a day and I'll be beaming for days.
The reality of leaving Rose is slowly hitting me. It probably won't fully hit me till this fall when classes start. It is so weird to think that I won't be there in classes any more and to be taking real classes at another college. I think I may enjoy this switch to CS, but I'm even more uncertain of what I want to do after college. Definately a crossroad in my life.
So it's Flag Day apparently. Don't know exactly what that means. Fly a flag or something.
I want to go bowling. With my ball. And be a little competitive. I miss competition. I should be playing baseball right now. I played baseball every summer from 1st grade till I graduated from high school. I miss it so much. I miss the sport, I miss the competition. I haven't competed in a sport since high school and I definately miss it.
Well, this is getting long, so I'll leave you with some Maroon 5. Enjoy.
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave
Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you
Monday, June 13, 2005
I Miss You on a Monday Evening
We got the little sucker. That's right. The mouse that thought he had outsmarted us, eating the bait on the mousetraps and then leaving it to taunt us has seen the end. Take that, dumb mouse.
So Adam and I hit up the library today. That was the most pitiful library I have seen in my life. It only had two Tom Clancy novels, not the best selection at all. It is the Haute, but I expected more. Now it wasn't the main library either, but even the small west branch in Belleville had roughly 10 times the amount of book this one had. It was also a bitch to just get a library card. You either have to be in school and it must be in session at that time and proof of it. Or proof of residecy in Terre Haute, and not just anything but an official document with the address on it. Or if you work in Terre Haute, they need proof of employment that has your Terre Haute address on it. Lucky for me, my pay stub has my address on it.
Today I woke up with a screaming headache. I expected to find there was a knife in my skull, the way it felt. I could barely walk, so I stumbled into the bathroom to get some Tylenol and stumbled back to bed, hoping I could at least be able to go in for a half-day. Well, I woke up at 11:30, feeling a little better. At least I could walk without hurting this time. So I made a quick lunch and went to work for a half-day. It wasn't too bad actually, once I got up and moving and thinking. I worked on a program with my project boss. And by worked on it with him, I mean I basically told him what to type and he typed it. It took about 3 times as it would have if I were doing it alone, but he's learning Java at the same time, so I guess its all about the learning process. Makes things interesting.
I hope installing these new drivers will let me play the new Battlefield 2 demo. That game looks like so much fun. Damn laptops.
We're gonna see the new Batman movie this Friday. I can't wait. It looks pretty good. I think Christian Bale will be awesome as Batman. Those in Terre Haute that would like to go wit us, let me know and I'll get you the details.
Got a good book, so I may not be online as much any more, but I can be gotten a hold of through my cell phone. Don't worry about interupting my book, I'd love to talk to you.
Sorry not many people knew I was leaving Rose. It wasn't exactly something I wanted to have public until it was for sure. Not exactly the most proud of leaving Rose. I hope people don't see me as some loser who couldn't make it at Rose. I think that's one of my biggest fears right now. I guess it's just time to turn another page in my life.
On the plus side, I talked with the registrar at ISU and I may be elgible to receive a waiver to pay in-state tuition for working at Columbia House this summer. I really hope that goes through. It will save me a lot of money.
I forgot how much Relient K rocks.
This day started out full of suck, but is looking a lot better now.
So this weekend was pretty good. On Friday night, Nick and I just hung out at the house, and I got MVP Baseball 2005. It is an awesome game, however it was not written to be used on a laptop. So I need to get this special controller they have, which will be awesome, or just get a real desktop computer to play it on.
Nick and I had a craving for sugar around midnight or so, so we hit up Kroger for some snacks. Mmmmmmmmmm, I love Krispy Kreme. And we got some Swedish Fish as well. Quite the delicasy.
On Saturday, I slept in. Wow, it felt good. I hadn't slept in like that in forever. It was really nice to do. Then Nick and I went to this guitar store in Terre Haute, so we could drool..er, I mean so Nick could buy strings. It was fun. Then I came back and got ready for my hot date.
Katie was mucho caliente, but that's a given. I took her to Puccinni's Italian Restaurant. It was very nice, in a neat little part of Bloomington. Good food, a little expensive, but my Kate's worth it. Then we went to see "Kingdom of Heaven." Good movie. I enjoyed it. Then we hit up, Starbucks (Katie's favorite) before heading back to IU. Instead of going right back to her room we went for a walk in this park area by her dorm. It was really nice. I love just being with her, talking and enjoying each other's company, sipping a white chocolate mocha. Good times.
Well dinner is almost ready so I think I will leave you with some Incubus. Good stuff.
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?
I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you
So Adam and I hit up the library today. That was the most pitiful library I have seen in my life. It only had two Tom Clancy novels, not the best selection at all. It is the Haute, but I expected more. Now it wasn't the main library either, but even the small west branch in Belleville had roughly 10 times the amount of book this one had. It was also a bitch to just get a library card. You either have to be in school and it must be in session at that time and proof of it. Or proof of residecy in Terre Haute, and not just anything but an official document with the address on it. Or if you work in Terre Haute, they need proof of employment that has your Terre Haute address on it. Lucky for me, my pay stub has my address on it.
Today I woke up with a screaming headache. I expected to find there was a knife in my skull, the way it felt. I could barely walk, so I stumbled into the bathroom to get some Tylenol and stumbled back to bed, hoping I could at least be able to go in for a half-day. Well, I woke up at 11:30, feeling a little better. At least I could walk without hurting this time. So I made a quick lunch and went to work for a half-day. It wasn't too bad actually, once I got up and moving and thinking. I worked on a program with my project boss. And by worked on it with him, I mean I basically told him what to type and he typed it. It took about 3 times as it would have if I were doing it alone, but he's learning Java at the same time, so I guess its all about the learning process. Makes things interesting.
I hope installing these new drivers will let me play the new Battlefield 2 demo. That game looks like so much fun. Damn laptops.
We're gonna see the new Batman movie this Friday. I can't wait. It looks pretty good. I think Christian Bale will be awesome as Batman. Those in Terre Haute that would like to go wit us, let me know and I'll get you the details.
Got a good book, so I may not be online as much any more, but I can be gotten a hold of through my cell phone. Don't worry about interupting my book, I'd love to talk to you.
Sorry not many people knew I was leaving Rose. It wasn't exactly something I wanted to have public until it was for sure. Not exactly the most proud of leaving Rose. I hope people don't see me as some loser who couldn't make it at Rose. I think that's one of my biggest fears right now. I guess it's just time to turn another page in my life.
On the plus side, I talked with the registrar at ISU and I may be elgible to receive a waiver to pay in-state tuition for working at Columbia House this summer. I really hope that goes through. It will save me a lot of money.
I forgot how much Relient K rocks.
This day started out full of suck, but is looking a lot better now.
So this weekend was pretty good. On Friday night, Nick and I just hung out at the house, and I got MVP Baseball 2005. It is an awesome game, however it was not written to be used on a laptop. So I need to get this special controller they have, which will be awesome, or just get a real desktop computer to play it on.
Nick and I had a craving for sugar around midnight or so, so we hit up Kroger for some snacks. Mmmmmmmmmm, I love Krispy Kreme. And we got some Swedish Fish as well. Quite the delicasy.
On Saturday, I slept in. Wow, it felt good. I hadn't slept in like that in forever. It was really nice to do. Then Nick and I went to this guitar store in Terre Haute, so we could drool..er, I mean so Nick could buy strings. It was fun. Then I came back and got ready for my hot date.
Katie was mucho caliente, but that's a given. I took her to Puccinni's Italian Restaurant. It was very nice, in a neat little part of Bloomington. Good food, a little expensive, but my Kate's worth it. Then we went to see "Kingdom of Heaven." Good movie. I enjoyed it. Then we hit up, Starbucks (Katie's favorite) before heading back to IU. Instead of going right back to her room we went for a walk in this park area by her dorm. It was really nice. I love just being with her, talking and enjoying each other's company, sipping a white chocolate mocha. Good times.
Well dinner is almost ready so I think I will leave you with some Incubus. Good stuff.
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?
I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you
Friday, June 10, 2005
Silent Steeples on a Friday Afternoon
I got paid!! I half way have money again. Too bad it's only for 3 days work. Well, it will give me something to survive on for a week. Which is most definately a plus.
So this job so far has been learn as much upper level Java as fast as you can then teach everyone how to use it. Rose-Hulman has never been this hard. However, I have been enjoying this a lot more. But very much of that drinking from a fire hose analogy. I need to finish my Adavnced Java book. I think that will help out a lot.
Does anyone really read my Xanga by the way, or does everyone just get emails about my updates? Those that follow my blogspot, pay no attention to that comment.
So for those who haven't heard, chances are, I will not be returning to Rose next year. I am looking to possibly transfer to ISU as a Computer Science major. Life is kind of crazy right now. My future has never been so uncertain before in my life. All my life, I have been sure I wanted to be an engineer, but maybe that's just not for me. I have trouble getting excited about circuits and stuff like that, but I have loved all of the programming I have ever done. I have also loved the Sports Information stuff I have done. But for now I have to stop and figure what exactly I want to do with the rest of my life. I know I want to stay here in the Haute for the next couple of years. I have great things going on here and great friends and an awesome girlfriend only an hour away. I know I want to work with computers, but in what context is the current question. My dad has challenged me to decide between Computer Science and Information Technology. I am leaning towards CS, but my dad says I should really look into IT, as it will "better prepare me for real world situations." I dunno. Any advice on this area is always appreciated.
I am working on my application ISU, but I'm not sure what the rules are for being in-state are. I have lived here for a while now, but at least until recently my permanent address is in Illinois. Hopefully I will qualify for in-state tuition as that saves a ton of money.
I think people may know more than they let on to know. I really don't mind that they know this as they have never called me on stuff I wouldn't want them to know. I think they feel this way they can continue to let on as if they don't know. I don't care. I'm a book, read me.
Tonight should be fun. However, tomorrow will be awesome.
Come visit Nick, he's getting desperate and will be alone for the second weekend in a row. I don't know what he'll do when he lives by himself. On the other hand, Mike doesn't visit often enough. We miss him, and feel abandoned. Come back, Mike.
So a lot of people seem interested in dream girl, but have only had 3 applicants. Come on, girls. We are interested to see your responses. Being taken does not matter, as dream girl has no romantic implications as Nick pointed out. We will announce who we have chosen at the Back to School party.
Wow, I get paid overtime. I've never gotten paid overtime before. Apparently if you work more than eight hours in a day, you get time and a half. I could live with this. I also had a lot of taxes taken out. I've never had forty bucks taken out before. I feel kinda ripped off. Hmmmmm.
Well, looks like I didn't win the Jimmy Buffet tickets today. See at work we had a Cheeseburger in Paradise luncheon thing, and they were doing a drawing for a pair of Jimmy Buffet tickets and a runner up prize of a grill. I kinda wanted the grill more than the tickets though, as I'm not a huge Jimmy Buffet fan. Now don't get me wrong, I like Jimmy Buffet and all, but I could really use a grill and it ranks higher than going to a concert. Unless it was like a Linkin Park or Jack Johnson or 311, or something like that. Anywho, didn't win, so it doesn't matter.
Mmmmmmm, Margaritaville. Almost as good as Pina Cola-burg. Hehehe. 10 points to anyone who catches the reference.
Well I think I will leave you with some classic Dispatch. What an awesome band.
I heard a story about a boy, who was swept off the deck
the sweeping tide swept the sea over his neck
but it did not end there, the boy began to swim
and dared to the sea that dared to invade him
did you ever want to know me
did you ever feel like I could
it's a silent steeple that carries us down
it's a silent steeple
but the sea wouldn't so much as reply
so the boy swore to the ships that were fated to die
red sky at night, sailors take delight
red sky in the morning, sailors take warning
sail on, take it back, sail on, take it back, sail on, take it back
we were going with the wind in our hair
and we didn't want to look back 'cause if we did We would not care
and if we all were to die now
well it wouldn't be that bad
'cause the boy in the waves said he'd give us everything, everything he had
to go on and trace that scar, like we did ten years before
So this job so far has been learn as much upper level Java as fast as you can then teach everyone how to use it. Rose-Hulman has never been this hard. However, I have been enjoying this a lot more. But very much of that drinking from a fire hose analogy. I need to finish my Adavnced Java book. I think that will help out a lot.
Does anyone really read my Xanga by the way, or does everyone just get emails about my updates? Those that follow my blogspot, pay no attention to that comment.
So for those who haven't heard, chances are, I will not be returning to Rose next year. I am looking to possibly transfer to ISU as a Computer Science major. Life is kind of crazy right now. My future has never been so uncertain before in my life. All my life, I have been sure I wanted to be an engineer, but maybe that's just not for me. I have trouble getting excited about circuits and stuff like that, but I have loved all of the programming I have ever done. I have also loved the Sports Information stuff I have done. But for now I have to stop and figure what exactly I want to do with the rest of my life. I know I want to stay here in the Haute for the next couple of years. I have great things going on here and great friends and an awesome girlfriend only an hour away. I know I want to work with computers, but in what context is the current question. My dad has challenged me to decide between Computer Science and Information Technology. I am leaning towards CS, but my dad says I should really look into IT, as it will "better prepare me for real world situations." I dunno. Any advice on this area is always appreciated.
I am working on my application ISU, but I'm not sure what the rules are for being in-state are. I have lived here for a while now, but at least until recently my permanent address is in Illinois. Hopefully I will qualify for in-state tuition as that saves a ton of money.
I think people may know more than they let on to know. I really don't mind that they know this as they have never called me on stuff I wouldn't want them to know. I think they feel this way they can continue to let on as if they don't know. I don't care. I'm a book, read me.
Tonight should be fun. However, tomorrow will be awesome.
Come visit Nick, he's getting desperate and will be alone for the second weekend in a row. I don't know what he'll do when he lives by himself. On the other hand, Mike doesn't visit often enough. We miss him, and feel abandoned. Come back, Mike.
So a lot of people seem interested in dream girl, but have only had 3 applicants. Come on, girls. We are interested to see your responses. Being taken does not matter, as dream girl has no romantic implications as Nick pointed out. We will announce who we have chosen at the Back to School party.
Wow, I get paid overtime. I've never gotten paid overtime before. Apparently if you work more than eight hours in a day, you get time and a half. I could live with this. I also had a lot of taxes taken out. I've never had forty bucks taken out before. I feel kinda ripped off. Hmmmmm.
Well, looks like I didn't win the Jimmy Buffet tickets today. See at work we had a Cheeseburger in Paradise luncheon thing, and they were doing a drawing for a pair of Jimmy Buffet tickets and a runner up prize of a grill. I kinda wanted the grill more than the tickets though, as I'm not a huge Jimmy Buffet fan. Now don't get me wrong, I like Jimmy Buffet and all, but I could really use a grill and it ranks higher than going to a concert. Unless it was like a Linkin Park or Jack Johnson or 311, or something like that. Anywho, didn't win, so it doesn't matter.
Mmmmmmm, Margaritaville. Almost as good as Pina Cola-burg. Hehehe. 10 points to anyone who catches the reference.
Well I think I will leave you with some classic Dispatch. What an awesome band.
I heard a story about a boy, who was swept off the deck
the sweeping tide swept the sea over his neck
but it did not end there, the boy began to swim
and dared to the sea that dared to invade him
did you ever want to know me
did you ever feel like I could
it's a silent steeple that carries us down
it's a silent steeple
but the sea wouldn't so much as reply
so the boy swore to the ships that were fated to die
red sky at night, sailors take delight
red sky in the morning, sailors take warning
sail on, take it back, sail on, take it back, sail on, take it back
we were going with the wind in our hair
and we didn't want to look back 'cause if we did We would not care
and if we all were to die now
well it wouldn't be that bad
'cause the boy in the waves said he'd give us everything, everything he had
to go on and trace that scar, like we did ten years before
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Posters on a Thursday Night
Today was not too bad. Work was kind of boring. I see a pattern. Hoepfully this changes soon. I think it was mainly coming in towards the end of a cycle. Well this cycle ends next week, so hopefully it will pick up more in the next cycle.
Went for a nice run after dinner tonight. It was rather nice, but my legs aren't very happy with me. I definately ran a good distance, and when I run, it's not one of those pansy little jogs. I'm talking a nice run. Feels great.
So I kinda jinxed my boys about the sweep. I'm sorry guys. It was a good series though, still something to be proud about. We still outscored them 16-6, and outhit them 24-22. It was a good series. We still have the best record in the National League and are six and a half games over the Cubs for the division.
I'm sitting in the same room as my housemates and yet we all talk to each other on IM. We are tools. At one time we were all on newegg.com. Yes, we are tools.
Rather loving Jack Johnson right now. Amazing talent on the guitar. I always appreciate the acoustic guitar more. And he is amazing on it.
Hopefully Jesseca will come to visit tomorrow night. Haven't seen her in forever. On Saturday, I'm taking Kate out for our first date. I have some fun plans for it. Should be fun. I'm really looking forward to it. I love that girl.
I can't wait to build my computer. It is gonna be hot. Even Nick is drooling and it's not even his computer. Wow, I'm a dork. But I'm cool with it. I've come to realize it and I'm okay with it.
Hehe, we need to find Mike or Adam a Katie.
Well, I am getting tired, and would like to get some good sleep tonight. If you are in Terrible Haute tomorrow (Friday) and would like to go bowling, let me know. I miss it and would like to go Friday night after I get paid. I also miss playing baseball, but I don't expect to get into a baseball league or anything. Oh well.
I think I will leave you with some Jack Johnson. Enjoy.
Looking at himself but wishing he was someone else
Because the posters on the wall they don't look like him at all
So he ties it up, he tucks it in, he pulls it back, and gives a grin
Laughing at himself because he knows he ain't loved at all
He gets his courage from the can,
It makes him feel like a man
Because he's loving all the ladies
But the ladies don't love him at all
Cause when he's not drunk
He's only stuck on himself
And then he has the nerve
To say he needs a decent girl
Looking at herself but wishing she was someone else
Because the body of the doll it don't look like hers at all
So she straps it on, she sucks it in, she throws it up, and gives a grin
Laughing at herself because she knows she ain't that at all
All caught up in the trends
Well the truth began to bend
And the next thing you know man
There just ain't no truth left at all
Cause when the pretty girl walks
She walks so proud
And when the pretty girl laughs
Oh man, she laughs so loud
And if it ain't this then its that
As a matter of fact
She hasn't had a day to relax
Since she has lost her ability to think clearly
Well I'm an energetic hypothetic version of another person
Check out my outsides there ain't nothing in here
Well I'm a superficial, systematic, music television addict
Check out my outsides there ain't nothing in
Went for a nice run after dinner tonight. It was rather nice, but my legs aren't very happy with me. I definately ran a good distance, and when I run, it's not one of those pansy little jogs. I'm talking a nice run. Feels great.
So I kinda jinxed my boys about the sweep. I'm sorry guys. It was a good series though, still something to be proud about. We still outscored them 16-6, and outhit them 24-22. It was a good series. We still have the best record in the National League and are six and a half games over the Cubs for the division.
I'm sitting in the same room as my housemates and yet we all talk to each other on IM. We are tools. At one time we were all on newegg.com. Yes, we are tools.
Rather loving Jack Johnson right now. Amazing talent on the guitar. I always appreciate the acoustic guitar more. And he is amazing on it.
Hopefully Jesseca will come to visit tomorrow night. Haven't seen her in forever. On Saturday, I'm taking Kate out for our first date. I have some fun plans for it. Should be fun. I'm really looking forward to it. I love that girl.
I can't wait to build my computer. It is gonna be hot. Even Nick is drooling and it's not even his computer. Wow, I'm a dork. But I'm cool with it. I've come to realize it and I'm okay with it.
Hehe, we need to find Mike or Adam a Katie.
Well, I am getting tired, and would like to get some good sleep tonight. If you are in Terrible Haute tomorrow (Friday) and would like to go bowling, let me know. I miss it and would like to go Friday night after I get paid. I also miss playing baseball, but I don't expect to get into a baseball league or anything. Oh well.
I think I will leave you with some Jack Johnson. Enjoy.
Looking at himself but wishing he was someone else
Because the posters on the wall they don't look like him at all
So he ties it up, he tucks it in, he pulls it back, and gives a grin
Laughing at himself because he knows he ain't loved at all
He gets his courage from the can,
It makes him feel like a man
Because he's loving all the ladies
But the ladies don't love him at all
Cause when he's not drunk
He's only stuck on himself
And then he has the nerve
To say he needs a decent girl
Looking at herself but wishing she was someone else
Because the body of the doll it don't look like hers at all
So she straps it on, she sucks it in, she throws it up, and gives a grin
Laughing at herself because she knows she ain't that at all
All caught up in the trends
Well the truth began to bend
And the next thing you know man
There just ain't no truth left at all
Cause when the pretty girl walks
She walks so proud
And when the pretty girl laughs
Oh man, she laughs so loud
And if it ain't this then its that
As a matter of fact
She hasn't had a day to relax
Since she has lost her ability to think clearly
Well I'm an energetic hypothetic version of another person
Check out my outsides there ain't nothing in here
Well I'm a superficial, systematic, music television addict
Check out my outsides there ain't nothing in
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Seems Uncertain on a Wednesday Afternoon
So I'm sitting at work, with nothing to do. Absolutely nothing to do. And it sucks. I worked diligently and efficiently and got my code done early so that the people who need it can begin implementing it. I gave myself a deadline and succeeded. And what is my reward? I sit here bored as they have nothing else for me to do. Maybe that's why it takes people here so long to get stuff done. They are so afraid of being done before they have something else to do afterwards. I dunno. All I really know is it takes way to long for anything to get done around here, and sitting here waiting sucks.
Is it still Wednesday?
Have I mentioned my Cardinals rock? Last night they stomped the Red Sox 9-2. They are just crushing the BoSox right now and show no signs of letting up. And we have Carpenter on the mound tonight. I smell sweep, but let's not get ahead of ourselves here. This is still the team that bounced back from an 0-3 deficit to the Yankees to go on to win 8 straight playoff games. Now that's just nuts. However, these Cardinals do not look like the same team that just seemed stunned in the World Series. These birds are a whomping 18 games over .500 and it's not even the All-Star break.
Speaking of All-Star break, those who haven't voted, go do so. You allowed to vote up to 25 times. I know, it doesn't make much of sense to me either, but you can. So go vote, 25 times, or die, like Paris Hilton.
My good friend Tim, brings up a good point. If the season were to end right now, the playoffs would be as follows: Baltimore, Chicago (White Sox) and Texas as AL Division Winners with Minnesota getting the Wild Card, and St. Louis, Washington and San Diego as NL Division Winners and Atlanta getting the Wild Card. Notice this list does not include Red Sox, Yankees, Angels, A's, Dodgers, Cubs, Giants, Mets or Marlins, teams that have consistantly made the playoffs in the past decade. However this list includes Baltimore, Texas, and Washington (formally the Expos), teams that have consistantly been the bottom of their division. The only returning playoff teams would be St Louis, Minnesota and Atlanta. Rather interesting.
Been listening to 311 a lot lately. It's been really relaxing and rather nice. I hope I don't drive my roommates nuts with it though.
Anybody know anything about ISU's Computer Science reputation?
I want MLB Baseball 2005. It's pretty cheap turns out, but I have no money. Grrrrrrr. I will finally have money on Friday though, and I rather look forward to that.
So the last weekend of June, I am taking Katie to a Cardinal's game and coming home for the weekend. So anyone who would like to go to the game with us, let me know and I'll try to get a ticket for you as well. Also, those who will be in the B-ville that weekend and want to hang out, let me know. You could even then get to meet the ever awesome Katie.
This is really late, but it has been on Rabbi's blog for a while now. The TSAV house is having a dreamgirl. If you would like to apply, download it here. We are hoping for some interesting responses. You can email it to me and I will forward it on to the rest of TSAV. Please send a decent quality photo with it. We don't even care if it's of you, just has to represent you. Be creative.
It is interesting to see who reads your blog.
Saturday should be fun. I'm looking forward to it.
It's fun to just be kinda random. Hehe, ADD....wanna ride bikes?
Well, I don't have much more to say, so I think I will end with the ever popular band of right now, 311. Enjoy.
It seems uncertain
I wish it was forgone
To know the version
That made life go wrong
Wish I had a clue
What rearranged our molecules
Mostly wondering
It seems uncertain
In times of trouble
Everyone joins a team
No one waves a flag
For all human beings
No one's excited
Unless they are divided
Someone's going to have to give in
It seems uncertain
I'd like to be
One of the faithful millions
But what I see
Is an excuse for the killing
Your denomination
Should be a private thing
How about a spirit
For all human beings
How could something well guided
Turn out to be divisive
Mostly wondering
It seems uncertain
Is it still Wednesday?
Have I mentioned my Cardinals rock? Last night they stomped the Red Sox 9-2. They are just crushing the BoSox right now and show no signs of letting up. And we have Carpenter on the mound tonight. I smell sweep, but let's not get ahead of ourselves here. This is still the team that bounced back from an 0-3 deficit to the Yankees to go on to win 8 straight playoff games. Now that's just nuts. However, these Cardinals do not look like the same team that just seemed stunned in the World Series. These birds are a whomping 18 games over .500 and it's not even the All-Star break.
Speaking of All-Star break, those who haven't voted, go do so. You allowed to vote up to 25 times. I know, it doesn't make much of sense to me either, but you can. So go vote, 25 times, or die, like Paris Hilton.
My good friend Tim, brings up a good point. If the season were to end right now, the playoffs would be as follows: Baltimore, Chicago (White Sox) and Texas as AL Division Winners with Minnesota getting the Wild Card, and St. Louis, Washington and San Diego as NL Division Winners and Atlanta getting the Wild Card. Notice this list does not include Red Sox, Yankees, Angels, A's, Dodgers, Cubs, Giants, Mets or Marlins, teams that have consistantly made the playoffs in the past decade. However this list includes Baltimore, Texas, and Washington (formally the Expos), teams that have consistantly been the bottom of their division. The only returning playoff teams would be St Louis, Minnesota and Atlanta. Rather interesting.
Been listening to 311 a lot lately. It's been really relaxing and rather nice. I hope I don't drive my roommates nuts with it though.
Anybody know anything about ISU's Computer Science reputation?
I want MLB Baseball 2005. It's pretty cheap turns out, but I have no money. Grrrrrrr. I will finally have money on Friday though, and I rather look forward to that.
So the last weekend of June, I am taking Katie to a Cardinal's game and coming home for the weekend. So anyone who would like to go to the game with us, let me know and I'll try to get a ticket for you as well. Also, those who will be in the B-ville that weekend and want to hang out, let me know. You could even then get to meet the ever awesome Katie.
This is really late, but it has been on Rabbi's blog for a while now. The TSAV house is having a dreamgirl. If you would like to apply, download it here. We are hoping for some interesting responses. You can email it to me and I will forward it on to the rest of TSAV. Please send a decent quality photo with it. We don't even care if it's of you, just has to represent you. Be creative.
It is interesting to see who reads your blog.
Saturday should be fun. I'm looking forward to it.
It's fun to just be kinda random. Hehe, ADD....wanna ride bikes?
Well, I don't have much more to say, so I think I will end with the ever popular band of right now, 311. Enjoy.
It seems uncertain
I wish it was forgone
To know the version
That made life go wrong
Wish I had a clue
What rearranged our molecules
Mostly wondering
It seems uncertain
In times of trouble
Everyone joins a team
No one waves a flag
For all human beings
No one's excited
Unless they are divided
Someone's going to have to give in
It seems uncertain
I'd like to be
One of the faithful millions
But what I see
Is an excuse for the killing
Your denomination
Should be a private thing
How about a spirit
For all human beings
How could something well guided
Turn out to be divisive
Mostly wondering
It seems uncertain
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Feeling This on a Tuesday Afternoon
Yeah, yeah, its been a while since I last updated. It's been a crazy week. Been working at Columbia House now for a week. It's been alright. Probably the best job I've had so far, but that really isn't saying much. I have been assigned to a project that converts dates from a Gregorian Calendar or Julian format to GWD and vice versa. Now this GWD format is a format that gives the week and day of the week (both zero based) starting at January 1970. This is about one of the worst ways to format, but it was apparently the best way to do it, when they began coding in 1970. But since it needs to communicate with all this old stuff, we have to be able to convert back and forth. Eh, it hasn't been a hard project. Whatev.
Wednesday we got to move in, a day before they were gonna originally let us. It was rather nice to get in and sleep on my own bed in my own room. The house feels so much more like home, than it ever has before. It is so nice to just be out on my own with a few of my closest friends and only depend on each other for survival. I feel so much more grown up and such right now. I have my own house and a full time job doing something I could see myself doing for more than just summer. It's a nice feeling.
I love being able to listen to music at work. I can totally zone better. Some good rock is perfect for coding.
Friday was great. We had many people over, which was awesome to see. This is something I'm looking forward to with this house. I am a rather social person, so I love it when people come by, if even only to hang out for a little.
Saturday, Katie and I got up early to head to her mother's house to help her move in. Yes, this was the big day I met Katie's family. I was a little nervous at first, but they really warmed up to me, making me feel awesome. Her grandparents even hugged me on their way out the door, stating I was "family now, and in this family we hug." I hope my parents respond similarily to Katie in a couple weeks when I bring her home. I definately felt welcome with them.
Sunday we drove back. We had to leave early because Katie's ex boyfriend needed a ride and had to be back early for work. How do you spell awkward? She didn't tell him I was coming with her either, so I got a nice "what the hell are you doing here?" look from him. I definately got a few "would you please just leave, I want to hang out with Katie" vibes from him. I don't think he likes me. I dunno. It was rather awkward.
After we drop this guy off at his apartment, we go over to a nearby lake and just chill. One of the few times I was able to just sit with her and relax. It was awesome. It was gorgeous outside too. Then the idea to go golfing came up, se we headed back Terrible Haute and got my golf clubs and hit a driving range. It was nice to hit a golf ball again. I hadn't golfed since last summer. I really want to play again. Katie's not bad either, so it would be fun to play her some time. I would just have to try not to get too competitive. It's hard. She's been golfing since she was seven, so she would probably kick my ass any way. Eh, whatever.
So my Cardinals rock. With the best record in the National League and a nice 7-1 win over the defending World Series champions, Red Sox, my Cards are looking better than ever. And Matt Morris even pitched a 1 run complete game win. Matt Morris is looking like the ace he once was. Definately fun to watch.
Well, its points time again, ladies and gentlemen. To start off with, 250 points to my Kate for an awesome month. It was one of the best. You are the greatest. 25 points a piece to TSAV for a successful move-in. 15 points to all who came to our move in party. 20 points to the cable guy for giving us internet. -15 points to Nick's hub for taking my internet away. Little punk. 10 points a piece to Katie's family for making me feel welcome. 50 points to Amy for being an awesome listener. Thanks so much. 65 points to Adam for being a considerate roommate, but -15 for scaring the living shit out of me with your sleep yelling. 35 points to Tom for driving us to IHOP on Friday night. It was awesome. 25 points to Sara for making us some awesome pizza. 20 points to Tom for making work interesting when its so boring. 45 points to those who read my blog regularly. Another 40 for those who comment. Another 2 to 25 points for those who leave a comment that makes me smile. More points for creativity.
I will leave you with some Blink 182 to change things up a little. Good band, haven't listened to them in a while, but fit my mood rather well.
I got no regret right now (I’m feeling this)
The air is so cold and low (I’m feeling this)
Let me go in her room (I’m feeling this)
I love all the things you do (I’m feeling this)
Show me the way to bed (I’m feeling this)
Show me the way you move (I’m feeling this)
Fuck it, it's such a blur (I’m feeling this)
I love all the things you do (I’m feeling this)
Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I’ll leave when I wanna
Where do we go from here
Turn all the lights down now
Smiling from ear to ear (I’m feeling this)
Our breathing has got too loud (I’m feeling this)
Show me the bedroom floor (I’m feeling this)
Show me the bathroom mirror (I’m feeling this)
We’re taking this way too slow (I’m feeling this)
Take me away from here (I’m feeling this)
This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How can you say you meant anything different
To anyone standing alone
On the street with a cigarette
On the first night we met
Look to the past
And remember and smile.
And maybe tonight
I can breathe for awhile.
I'm not in the scene
I think I'm fallin' asleep
But then all that it means is
I'll always be dreaming of you
Wednesday we got to move in, a day before they were gonna originally let us. It was rather nice to get in and sleep on my own bed in my own room. The house feels so much more like home, than it ever has before. It is so nice to just be out on my own with a few of my closest friends and only depend on each other for survival. I feel so much more grown up and such right now. I have my own house and a full time job doing something I could see myself doing for more than just summer. It's a nice feeling.
I love being able to listen to music at work. I can totally zone better. Some good rock is perfect for coding.
Friday was great. We had many people over, which was awesome to see. This is something I'm looking forward to with this house. I am a rather social person, so I love it when people come by, if even only to hang out for a little.
Saturday, Katie and I got up early to head to her mother's house to help her move in. Yes, this was the big day I met Katie's family. I was a little nervous at first, but they really warmed up to me, making me feel awesome. Her grandparents even hugged me on their way out the door, stating I was "family now, and in this family we hug." I hope my parents respond similarily to Katie in a couple weeks when I bring her home. I definately felt welcome with them.
Sunday we drove back. We had to leave early because Katie's ex boyfriend needed a ride and had to be back early for work. How do you spell awkward? She didn't tell him I was coming with her either, so I got a nice "what the hell are you doing here?" look from him. I definately got a few "would you please just leave, I want to hang out with Katie" vibes from him. I don't think he likes me. I dunno. It was rather awkward.
After we drop this guy off at his apartment, we go over to a nearby lake and just chill. One of the few times I was able to just sit with her and relax. It was awesome. It was gorgeous outside too. Then the idea to go golfing came up, se we headed back Terrible Haute and got my golf clubs and hit a driving range. It was nice to hit a golf ball again. I hadn't golfed since last summer. I really want to play again. Katie's not bad either, so it would be fun to play her some time. I would just have to try not to get too competitive. It's hard. She's been golfing since she was seven, so she would probably kick my ass any way. Eh, whatever.
So my Cardinals rock. With the best record in the National League and a nice 7-1 win over the defending World Series champions, Red Sox, my Cards are looking better than ever. And Matt Morris even pitched a 1 run complete game win. Matt Morris is looking like the ace he once was. Definately fun to watch.
Well, its points time again, ladies and gentlemen. To start off with, 250 points to my Kate for an awesome month. It was one of the best. You are the greatest. 25 points a piece to TSAV for a successful move-in. 15 points to all who came to our move in party. 20 points to the cable guy for giving us internet. -15 points to Nick's hub for taking my internet away. Little punk. 10 points a piece to Katie's family for making me feel welcome. 50 points to Amy for being an awesome listener. Thanks so much. 65 points to Adam for being a considerate roommate, but -15 for scaring the living shit out of me with your sleep yelling. 35 points to Tom for driving us to IHOP on Friday night. It was awesome. 25 points to Sara for making us some awesome pizza. 20 points to Tom for making work interesting when its so boring. 45 points to those who read my blog regularly. Another 40 for those who comment. Another 2 to 25 points for those who leave a comment that makes me smile. More points for creativity.
I will leave you with some Blink 182 to change things up a little. Good band, haven't listened to them in a while, but fit my mood rather well.
I got no regret right now (I’m feeling this)
The air is so cold and low (I’m feeling this)
Let me go in her room (I’m feeling this)
I love all the things you do (I’m feeling this)
Show me the way to bed (I’m feeling this)
Show me the way you move (I’m feeling this)
Fuck it, it's such a blur (I’m feeling this)
I love all the things you do (I’m feeling this)
Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I’ll leave when I wanna
Where do we go from here
Turn all the lights down now
Smiling from ear to ear (I’m feeling this)
Our breathing has got too loud (I’m feeling this)
Show me the bedroom floor (I’m feeling this)
Show me the bathroom mirror (I’m feeling this)
We’re taking this way too slow (I’m feeling this)
Take me away from here (I’m feeling this)
This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How can you say you meant anything different
To anyone standing alone
On the street with a cigarette
On the first night we met
Look to the past
And remember and smile.
And maybe tonight
I can breathe for awhile.
I'm not in the scene
I think I'm fallin' asleep
But then all that it means is
I'll always be dreaming of you
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Reconsider Everything on a Wednesday Afternoon
So it's been a little while since I last posted, I know, but I've been hella busy. I started working at Columbia House yesterday, and haven't done squat so far. Right now, I'm just here, chillin' and waiting for them to give me something to do. It's tough because my project manager is out of town and will eb gone until tomorrow, but I'll be gone tomorrow to move into my house, so I won't see him until Friday. I have looked over some of his Java code already and found some errors and just a couple spots where he was just highly ineffecient. It was the first time he had ever written Java code, so I'll give him a break. I have nothing left to do though. I have looked over the code a billion times, and have been downloading random things all day. Blah.
However, speaking of moving in, apparently we are moving in right now. We were supossed to not be abel to till tomorrow, but for some odd reason, we can now. Nick and Adam are in this process as we speak. I wish I could go help them right now. I think I am going out my mind just sitting here. That's what Rose will do to you. Last night after work, I came back to New Res and just hung out and relaxed. But I felt guilty. I felt like there was something I should be doing and by just sitting there I was slacking. I can't even friggin' relax any more!! Thanks, Rose.
It is gonna be nice being in the house soon. I can't wait to be fully moved in. We are having a party this Friday to celebrate it. My Kate is coming which will make even more enjoyable. Then on Saturday, we are going up to her home to help her mother move. It should be interesting. I have never met her parents, so I am a little nervous. First impressions can be everything, so I really hope my first impression on them is good. Well, we'll find out. Wish me luck. Anyway, if anyone is in Terre Haute or in the area, come by our house on S. 20th St. It'll be a good time and anyone who reads my blog is invited.
So turns out, my Cardinals rock. They have the best record in the National League and second best record in baseball to only the White Sox. They currently have an astounding seven and a half game lead in the central division, the biggest lead they have had by the month of June....ever. Up until this point, the largest lead the Cardinals had ever had by June was a mere 3 game lead. At this point in the season, most team have an at most a five game lead and currently only the White Sox have even close to this lead with a five game lead. This is just nuts. The season is far from over, but my boys are looking good thus far. And these last few weeks have been without our star third baseman, Scott Rolen. Go Cardinals!! For those who put up with my latest Cardinals rant, thank you.
I love how Kate not only puts up with the Cardinals, but has actually started to follow them herself. That is sooo hot. She is just so awesome. For those who just put up with my latest Kate rant, thank you.
I don't really want to still be at work right now. It wouldn't be too bad if I had things to do. But I don't. And so I sit here and, for now, blog.
So turns out I'm working with Tom Aigner, which is pretty fun. We goof off together sometimes, especially when we don't have anything to do. Aka, all the time. He's fun to mess with, as he will mess with me right back. The third intern is another guy from Rose, named Zeke Lundstrom. I have no idea who this guy is. I tried facebooking him, but he's not on it. We hope we can mess with him too. We'll see.
Well I'll leave ya with some good ole 311 that I've been humming to myself all day. I think it was the last thing playing in my car when I got here. Whatever, it's a good song. I love the idea of thinking for yourself that this song pushes. I just love that. So many times people just have these ideas without anthing to back them up or any idea as to why it would make sense. That's why I love it when a blog stirs up a little controversy, it causes you to stop and think. And a good debate about the issue causes people to have a reason behind it. Anywho, great song. Read it!!
How many times will they do the same thing?
How did they get programmed to your following?
Everyone's locked up in their suffering
The only way you can tell is reconsider everything
What if the truth is that there is no truth
The only thing I can prove is there is no proof
Don't be so sure that your source is correct
People believed it before, before they had checked
How many times can they tell you
Til you just give them their way
How many times can they sell you
Til you let them have their say
Every time you will ignore your
Heart it will come back twice more
Never deny your own instinct
Reconsider Everything
Everybody want something they control
Some just want grass some they want gold
Either way does it feel good or feel low
Taking you down not fast but real slow
Rebellion done for it's own sake
Does not a true free thinker make
To go against for it's own sake
You're still controlled by the course that the other man takes
However, speaking of moving in, apparently we are moving in right now. We were supossed to not be abel to till tomorrow, but for some odd reason, we can now. Nick and Adam are in this process as we speak. I wish I could go help them right now. I think I am going out my mind just sitting here. That's what Rose will do to you. Last night after work, I came back to New Res and just hung out and relaxed. But I felt guilty. I felt like there was something I should be doing and by just sitting there I was slacking. I can't even friggin' relax any more!! Thanks, Rose.
It is gonna be nice being in the house soon. I can't wait to be fully moved in. We are having a party this Friday to celebrate it. My Kate is coming which will make even more enjoyable. Then on Saturday, we are going up to her home to help her mother move. It should be interesting. I have never met her parents, so I am a little nervous. First impressions can be everything, so I really hope my first impression on them is good. Well, we'll find out. Wish me luck. Anyway, if anyone is in Terre Haute or in the area, come by our house on S. 20th St. It'll be a good time and anyone who reads my blog is invited.
So turns out, my Cardinals rock. They have the best record in the National League and second best record in baseball to only the White Sox. They currently have an astounding seven and a half game lead in the central division, the biggest lead they have had by the month of June....ever. Up until this point, the largest lead the Cardinals had ever had by June was a mere 3 game lead. At this point in the season, most team have an at most a five game lead and currently only the White Sox have even close to this lead with a five game lead. This is just nuts. The season is far from over, but my boys are looking good thus far. And these last few weeks have been without our star third baseman, Scott Rolen. Go Cardinals!! For those who put up with my latest Cardinals rant, thank you.
I love how Kate not only puts up with the Cardinals, but has actually started to follow them herself. That is sooo hot. She is just so awesome. For those who just put up with my latest Kate rant, thank you.
I don't really want to still be at work right now. It wouldn't be too bad if I had things to do. But I don't. And so I sit here and, for now, blog.
So turns out I'm working with Tom Aigner, which is pretty fun. We goof off together sometimes, especially when we don't have anything to do. Aka, all the time. He's fun to mess with, as he will mess with me right back. The third intern is another guy from Rose, named Zeke Lundstrom. I have no idea who this guy is. I tried facebooking him, but he's not on it. We hope we can mess with him too. We'll see.
Well I'll leave ya with some good ole 311 that I've been humming to myself all day. I think it was the last thing playing in my car when I got here. Whatever, it's a good song. I love the idea of thinking for yourself that this song pushes. I just love that. So many times people just have these ideas without anthing to back them up or any idea as to why it would make sense. That's why I love it when a blog stirs up a little controversy, it causes you to stop and think. And a good debate about the issue causes people to have a reason behind it. Anywho, great song. Read it!!
How many times will they do the same thing?
How did they get programmed to your following?
Everyone's locked up in their suffering
The only way you can tell is reconsider everything
What if the truth is that there is no truth
The only thing I can prove is there is no proof
Don't be so sure that your source is correct
People believed it before, before they had checked
How many times can they tell you
Til you just give them their way
How many times can they sell you
Til you let them have their say
Every time you will ignore your
Heart it will come back twice more
Never deny your own instinct
Reconsider Everything
Everybody want something they control
Some just want grass some they want gold
Either way does it feel good or feel low
Taking you down not fast but real slow
Rebellion done for it's own sake
Does not a true free thinker make
To go against for it's own sake
You're still controlled by the course that the other man takes
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