Somewhere I Belong on a Friday Night

I needed tonight. It was refreshingly relaxing. I didn't really do much at all and it was everything I was hoping it would be. After a most tasty dinner at Real Hacienda, we came back to the house. I ran to take a shower real quick so I could run to Ballroom Dancing Club, but as I stepped into the shower and felt that hot water massaging, beating on my skin, I decided I didn't want to run about tonight. I didn't want to push for a 2 minute shower, but relax and just enjoy a nice, hot shower. Then I got out and tooled for a little bit and played a video game a little. We played a little poker, for no money mind you (which gets a little annoying, but I'll come back to that) then I just curled up on the couch and just read for a while, enjoying a nice beverage. It was wonderful. I just sat there for a couple hours, diving into a nice book without a care. Then Justin calls me up and informs me we are heading to IHOP. So I got to a stopping point and went over to my computer to check some stuff to find that an old friend has added me to her MSN list. So I chatted with her for a little. It was really nice. I haven't spoken to her in ages, but had wondered what had happened to her. So it's always nice to catchup a little.

All in all, a good night. I'm in a good mood, can ya tell?

In a Linkin Park mood right now. Which is kind of odd. Linkin Park tends to be kinda angry, but I'm not angry at all. Maybe it's more becuase it makes it feel like freshman year. Who knows?

It's been a crazy week ranging from absolute bliss when the Pats got destroyed, and I mean destroyed, by the Colts to wanting to jump off a cliff. But things are back to a simple smile.

You know what I love? I love that simple late night cup of coffee with someone fun. Just go somewhere and talk. I love big group stuff, don't get me wrong, but I mis just doing something with one person. To simply dive into getting to know them better. A deep conversation or a simple late reminiscence of previous happenings. I love it. Especially with those I don't know that well. So for those of you out there I don't knwo as well as I would like, which pretty much includes everyone who reads my blog, let me know, I'd love to sit down and talk.

Well, it is getting late so I think I'll leave ya with some Linkin Park. Enjoy.

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own


I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong